June 24, 2012 ... it was or it seemed like a long week at work. I was off the previous week so had some catching up to do. Friday I had things to get done before I could leave so was feeling somewhat pressured. But ultimately got everything done. Fridays my ride is off, so I ride my bicycle to work. Most of the week we were in a heat wave but luckily on Friday it was much cooler with less humidity. My ride both to work and home were enjoyable. I'll be honest, my little legs aren't quite in the best shape for riding yet but getting there. The ride along the river soothes my soul.
My intentions of keeping up with daily meditations and tarot readings ... well that fell by the wayside. It pains me to say but oh so true. By the time I get home from work, my mental energy has left me. That leaves the weekends. Just finished another inner guide meditation and again very interesting. Wrote down my experience. After that I drew some cards from the Manga Tarot just to see what they had to say.
1 - 5 Swords
2- Ace of Pentacles
3 - King of Wands
Totally falls into line with me finding my self-confidence and not feeling defeated. Getting healthy and making my home, my home. Doesn't matter where it is. I am the beginning of the journey. It has to start with me and my well being ... physically, mentally and emotionally.
So I feel I am on the right path. Is it challenging ... absolutely. Will I fall off once in while ... probably. Will I have the strength to get back on ... indeed.
At this point in my life, my options are limited. I have to continue to work so I have somewhere to live. This isn't so bad as I don't mind doing my job. What I mind is the time it takes from my true joys in life. This is what I need to work on. Finding more of a balance. I have to find this balance within the confines of what my reality is and will be for more years to come.
I am grateful I have a job and one I don't mind going to.
I am grateful I don't mind being on my own since being on my own is what is.
I am grateful to have experienced love in various forms over the course of my life.
I am grateful I have been loved and am loved.
I am grateful for my two beautiful kitties who love me unconditionally.
My son called me the other night wanting to know if I would be interested in having a "family night" at least once a month. He wants to have a meal and play some games with his girlfriend, his sister and her boyfriend, and me. I thought it was terribly sweet of him and I said yes, let's plan it.
I am off work this coming week. Hoping to have more time to spend playing with my cards and catching up with some neglected paperwork, correspondence and reading. Well maybe all that won't get accomplished but will give it a try.
I do have some decisions to make about things that could help my life be a little easier financially. The cards I drew give me hope I will make some right decisions. It all begins with me.
Since I am off work for the coming week, will be back with a daily draw and my thoughts.
to be continued ....