Monday, July 29, 2013


Shutting down until September, no blogging, no Facebook, Twitter for family only, twice a week email check. Yep.

I am grateful for the opportunity to learn so much from my fellow bloggers and Facebook friends.  It has been beyond amazing and means a lot to me.  I will be back. I miss you already.

However, for now, it is time for me to revert back to a simpler time with less distractions in order to reinvent myself moving forward.  To discover newly who I am now, what I am, my capabilities, my limitations, my hopes and dreams.  Sincerely look at what I have versus what I want and how it all fits together.  Look at what really matters and take things back into my own hands.  So much has changed over the last two years.  What brought me joy and comfort has changed.  I want it back but of course that is not to be.  Life is ever changing. Moving forward is the only option.  

Card of the day, drawn from Universal Waite (U.S. Games Systems Inc.):

Quite appropriate considering.  The "9" - bringing to mind self-examination, self-study, paying attention to the inner self.  I will also be looking for the way "guidance" comes to me, in whatever form.

to be continued in the future ....

Sunday, July 21, 2013


Although still hot, a wonderful, less humid day today.  One can move about with a bit more ease and without breaking into a sweat.  What a week to have off work.  The hottest so far this summer.  It was impossible to go for any walks or even go outside for any length of time. My original plans are on hold until my next week off.

Over this last week, working with the heat and having no energy, I accomplished quite a bit. Made some discoveries, had some meaningful discussions, issues got resolved and am grateful for all of that.  With Mercury going direct, perhaps one last issue will work itself out.

Today, I dug out the Robin Wood Tarot by Robin Wood.  I don't use it very often mainly because the cards are slippery and I always end up losing control of them.  With my little hands, when shuffling, they tend to fly all over the place.  Not sure that is fixable but I do like them.

Draw for today:

Two eights.  My first thought was progress.  And then power.

The 8 of Cups makes me realize I don't have to put my "plans" in place right at this moment.  Perhaps I do need to further clarify the destination and allow for the ability to be flexible with the outcome.  More reflection is needed. There is work to do on my self-worth, self-confidence, knowing my power and knowing it all comes from within.  I am grateful for everything I have, materially and spiritually, but yes, there is more to do, more to work on.  I must go further into the unknown areas.  Work with my fears, don't let them work me.

Strength to me is all about knowing myself, having patience and remaining calm.

Most of my life, people have always commented on what strength and determination I have. How was I able to handle all the moves as a child.  How was I able to raise two children on my own (with no help from their father) and hold a full time job.  Of course, I did these things.  Outwardly. I had no choice and am grateful for the strength to get through them. Inside ... well that is a different story and an on-going project.

I am grateful for my two feline friends who love me unconditionally, as I do them.  Here is my big girl, China, enjoying the less humid air today.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013


Another hot humid day in southwestern Ontario.  Woke up early so decided to go do all my errands before breakfast.   I was smiling ear to ear when I found a basket of local baby cucumbers.  I wait all year for them.  Bought two.  Might need more :)  There is nothing better than fresh local produce.  How I miss having a garden.  Maybe someday again.

Not letting the heat stop me, I exercised, did a meditation, and sat down to play with the tarot.  Feeling very light today (if that is possible with this humidity lol), I decided to pull a card, again using the Spiral Tarot by Kay Steventon, with nothing particularly specific in mind.  Just a random card to talk about and learn from.

But ... this card is absolutely not random.  It carries on from yesterday.  The 6 to me is balance and choices.  The scale in this pictures is balanced.  It does seem they are coming together in a marriage or commitment and he appears, since wearing a crown, to be better off than she is.  However, for me this is about giving and receiving both materially and spiritually.  Giving without the thought of anything in return.  Being able to receive without giving back.  Being able to ask for a helping hand when needed.  Being able to give the helping hand when asked.  

The Pentacles again today especially with the 6 involved, seem to me to be very specific leading me to feel all I have done towards my security and that of my loved ones is on track. It will be okay.  However it all turns out.  It appears I am not alone and I must not forget that.

I am grateful for all the generous gifts given me in my life and for those I have been able to give.  It truly does all work out in the end.

I am grateful for the continued opportunity to create a meaningful life with all the ups and downs and choices ... the never ending cycle of growth.


Monday, July 15, 2013

Hot Summer Daze

What a few weeks. Vacation week, back to work for a week and now vacation week again.  This time the heat is here and me without a/c in my apartment relying on my two fans at times is a challenge.  Mentally and physically mostly.  The heat is really draining.  I do, of course, have the option of finding a cool place to go.  Might do that tomorrow.

Since Mercury went retro, or maybe even a little before that, my life has revolved around finances.  Mine and others; past, present and future monies; some coming and some going; a surprise raise at work :))  

It has all be rather up and down emotionally.  Hope, hopelessness, delays, resolutions.  On going.  Much to my delight, it seems to be taking a turn for the better and issues are being resolved, plans set in motion allowing me to move forward in better spirits.  

Decided to pull some cards with the above in mind and using the Spiral Tarot by Kay Steventon here are my cards:

Whoa, had to take a second look.  Talk about money cards.  Don't think I've ever pulled three court cards together, let alone all the same suit.  What are the odds.

The King seems to be reassuring me all will be fine.  I am strong and know what I am doing. The Knight (me) has put in the work and is ready, willing and able to do the work necessary to maintain the security the King so enjoys (or in my case will enjoy).
The Queen is also very aware of being financially secure but seems to be telling me be sure everything is in order but balance it out with something joyful.  Relax.  Have a glass of wine.  Sit in the garden.

I could be wrong but I am seeing these cards in a positive light.  Thoughts anyone?

I am grateful, perhaps to Mercury retro, for getting these issues out in the open so resolutions could begin. 

... off to think about something other than money :)

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Out of the Depths

A much welcomed better day today.  Still no sunshine to be found but that encourages me to complete some inside projects.

The card of the day from The Tarot of the Crone by Ellen Lorenzi-Prince:

What, another cup, this time a 6.  Surprise! A time for me to re-establish myself.  A reinvention based on the lessons and challenges I have lived through.  This is personal.  This is rooted in the past.  But can't stay in the past.

The card reminds me of a mirror.  A reflection of myself is being put out there and I must be aware.  Like the saying "as above, so below" which I used and heard a lot while studying astrology.  It can mean various things and for me it fits here.  Another saying "I am in the Universe, the Universe is in my body, the Universe and I combine together" is saying the same thing.  I say this to myself all the time. 

The Six of Cups in the traditional RWS deck tells me to lighten up, to share my gifts and learn from others.

A phone call from my son late last evening, although very emotional, ended with a viable solution to a problem causing me a great deal of stress.  I wasn't able to digest it last night but woke up ready to.

As well, a message from my daughter mid-afternoon today with totally exciting news concerning her career had me smiling from ear to ear. (I had been very concerned for her)

YES, some smiles.  Cups can be happy too ... :)))))

I am grateful to be able to smile today ....

Monday, July 1, 2013

Into the depths

What can I say except I fell into a hole today and wasn't quite sure how to get out.  Or even if I wanted to.  Well that isn't quite true as I always want to.  Just gets harder to want to.  It happened in a split second before I had a chance to stop it.  So I went with it for awhile, let myself experience it.  Let myself get lost in it.

Eventually I found myself doing some yoga but not being able to concentrate so sat down to meditate.  Realized the trigger, worked with it and once finished, got up, without thought found the Tarot of the Crone by Ellen Lorenzi-Prince.  Played with the cards for quite some time and then did her Cronebody Spread as outlined in the companion book.  Amazing and exactly what I needed.  It isn't easy for me yet to read her cards, however, the spread spoke to me easily.  I then drew another card just to finish off the session.

Could not help but smile and feel better:

From the companion book about the Sun:

"The Sun is a woman in a red robe with flowing white hair and a youthful joyful face.  She glows with inner and outer lights, as does the halo around her head.  With open hands, she showers the ground with coin-like drops of molten gold.

The Crone Sun is your bright shadow.  In the quest that is your life, you have left behind some capacity for happiness, some simple wholeness that you can call back to you now.  After all the good that you have been told you can't have and you can't be, it's time to say you can.  After all the suffering in the world, it's time not to add to it one ounce.  When the Sun comes out, it's okay to be happy.  More than that - it's a good thing.  When the Sun shines, everyone benefits.

Seek now for what brings you joy.  Act now as if that's all that matters.  Joy is the radiance that comes from expressing yourself, from singing your soul, from living with true passion.  Give to it with both hands."

How did she know!!!!!  I am grateful this deck found its way to me today ....